1.7 Dilemma

My Dilemma

If I were to go, I would be miserable

The whole day: my exhaustion

Could take over my learning power, and force

My GPA to decrease; this physics test

That I’ll miss will put me behind,

But right now, today,

I am not ready for it. I know

I must take it; but I am not feeling

Up to par, and, actually, not taking it

Could help me: I’ll spend the day

Studying and catching up in that class

And kill it tomorrow. But my mom trusts me;

First of all, she expects not to be fooled,

And even though this is good for me; I can’t, as her son,

Lie to her face and abuse her trust in me,

I cannot bring myself to. Besides, maybe I am

Better off being honest, and admitting

That I didn’t study for this, that I played

Video games instead, for no benefit, rather than

Preparing for the biggest test this year;

I feel bad, like I’ve lied to everybody,

Like even though it’ll help me, it’s wrong, no matter

How great the benefits are,

I shouldn’t be this dishonest,

I should come clean and man up. I need to take

This test and accept what comes, because I know

What’s right, which is more important than

Any old grade.